By the Ambassadors

At last, I want to share it.

I will sing to you my love song

Will write you a poem

I will give you my everything

Just don’t leave me all alone

I will take you to heaven

And offer you the stars

I will give you my all

I love you with all my heart

We’re not gonna make it right

I’ll always be by your side

Even if the world will turn its back on you

When you’re down and you’ve got nobody to hold on to

Take my hand and I will take you there

Hold on tight ’cause we will go somewhere

We’re not gonna make it right

I’ll always be by your side

Even if the world will turn its back on you

When you’re down and you’ve got nobody to hold on to

Gotta take you, to a place where even angels can’t disturb

So listen to me and feel the love I have for you

So here it goes

Oooh lalalala

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

Oooh lalalalala

So listen to me and feel the love I have for you

And here it goes

You’re everywhere I go, you’re everything I see

Two of us together make a perfect harmony

Oooh lalalala

So listen to me and feel the love I have for you

And here it goes

You’re everywhere I go, you’re everything I see

Two of us together make a perfect harmony

I will sing to you my love song (Make a perfect harmony)

Will write you a poem

I will give you my all

And love you with all my heart (Make a perfect harmony)

=] singing oooh lalalalala=p

Right. My schedule? I hate it. I should wake up early four times a week to attend my 7AM classes during Mondays, Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays. And not only that, 7AM to 12NN, with only 30 minutes break. And in the afternoon, I have a Chemistry class for two and a half hours on Mondays and Thursdays I think. And on Tuesdays and Fridays, Foreign Language and SRA(Reading Skills103).

You’ve heard it right. I have Foreign Language class. And it’s not what I want; Italian, French or something, but I think it’s only Mandarin. I hope it’s not Mandarin only or even not Mandarin.

That’s not the only disaster I have this semester. I have Chemistry(General & Inorganic Chemistry). Swimming on Saturdays, which I think is enjoying but a bit nerve-cracking if I want to maintain good grades. Also, add Logic to the burden. Not only that, add Basic Accounting plus four major subjects that are not as easy as others think. And lastly, add the additional thing to think about, a religion class at 7AM. Hahaha. What a mess.

The only thing I don’t worry about is the SRA that makes me relax for an hour. But the rest, again, it’s what you call 9x the pressure I had on my Algebra class, that luckily, I passed and got an acceptable grade.

Anyway, I know I can do it. I hope so. Help me God.

=]

Nothing. I just remebered a line from the Little Prince. and suddenly, it made me think about her again. It’s the line of the fox to the Little Prince, “It’s the time you’ve wasted for the rose that makes her very important to you” or whatsoever it was stated. I cannot remember the exact words. But really, it is very true for me. As I waste a lot of time on someone I like that don’t even care about me that makes her so important to me.

I was wondering before why everyday I seem to like her more when infact, we don’t even talk or whatever kind of communication. I just simply stare her pictures, daydream, and poof I’m longing for her more and more each day.

I miss her eventhough we haven’t really talked. So I was bothered if I easily fall inlove now. And I don’t want that to happen because I’m the only one affected much.

But when I pondered about that line from the Little Prince, I guess it’s nobody’s fault but mine that I like her more each day. Because I spend time just to stare at her pictures, think about her, dream about us, view her view her profile and the most time-consuming, writing a lot of songs just for her. And I don’t call that time wasted, as compared to what the fox said. I call it time spent, because nothing is wasted when it is important. I write a lot of songs that take me hours to just simply write and rewrite/edit the song. It has no melodies yet. And I know it will take longer time to put melodies to that songs. The song I have posted here entiitled ‘Sun’, that’s for her.

And this song, eventhough it’s not my masterpiece, I dedicate it to her. =]

Love Song by The Ambassadors

If you have read about this, waste your time to listen to that song. Anyway it’s very good.=p

Here’s a song I’ve written from June 3-4, 2009. I’ve rewritten and revised this. I haven’t put melody in this song yet. But I will be later on. This song’s mine. I got the idea from a song of Daphne Loves Derby which has the same title. I was inspired to write the song because of a girl I truly admire and I compare her to the brightest star which gives life to all.

Sun

By Reuben Martin A. Muni

Verse 1

You’re like the sun; you always brighten up my day

Even if you do it in your own simple way

You shine on me, you give me light

To feel you, the only one I wanna hug tight

Refrain

But when you are gone, gone, gone just like the sun

You gave me darkness I really want to overcome

‘Cause these nights are empty, made me longing for you

I wanna make it through, so again I can be with you

Chorus

You are my sun

And you are the one

Who makes me happy

Lonely, excited and angry

That’s why you have to know

I love you, don’t wanna let you go

‘Cause you make me and my heart

Warmer than ever and I like it from the start

Verse 2

You’re like the sun, you’re too hot

You give hope to others, while I’m not

You make me go out and enjoy the day

Instead of locking up all day

Repeat Refrain & Chorus

Bridge

But I know you gave you brightness to everyone

You shine, you smile on anyone

Even if you don’t know them, like me

‘Cause you shine around on everything you see

You’re like the sun, giving light to every moan

But I wanna be selfish and treat you as my own

So I wanna die now, ‘cause you don’t need me

But I need you all my life, baby can’t you see?

Singing lalalala. Singing happy. =p

ABC’s of Getting High Grades, an article from a magazine I have read. I liked it so I absorbed it and I want to share it to you. For those who are fortunate enough to read this, do it and enjoy!

A ttend classes regularly. Avoid making unnecessary absences. – I really do this. =]

B egin your day with God. Pray and read the Bible for your spiritual and intellectual growth. - I’ll try to do this. Even though I’m stubborn when it comes to Bible reading and doing important things early in the morning. Because I prefer to sleep until I want. =]

C ome to class early. This will give you time to review your notes or do advance reading. – I do come to class early. But I do not review my notes often, which I’ll be trying this incoming school year.

D ivide long-term assignments/projects into small tasks that you can work on a daily basis. - I actually do projects and assignments ahead of time so I won’t worry later. I wonder if it’s acceptable. =]

E ngage in profitable or intellectually enhancing hobbies. Join sports activities, enjoy the beauty of God’s creation, keep a diary, do one random act of kindness each day. – I try to do these things except for the diary. I just don’t want to make one.

F ocus on what you are doing at the moment for maximum efficiency. – I try my best to.

G o out and make friends. Make amends with your enemies. Doing so does not only add colors to your life, they also complete the circle of life. – I hope I can really be friends to the people I hate and who hates me.

H elp a classmate who is lagging behind. You’ll master your lesson in the process. – This is very right. Even though I’m not doing it always because I don’t have a lot of patience to teach. But anyway. I’ve been forced by one of my professors last school year to help my classmates specially in the computation. It’s okay for me though I want to go home after I’ve done my work. =]

I nvite the Lord to be your Guide, Partner, and Friend andyou’llalways be on the right track. – Proud to do this. =]

J ot down notes. They come in handy during reviews. – True. Although I have ugly scribbles. I mean handwriting.

K eep track of time. Wasted time equals lost opportunities. – Trying to use time wisely.

L augh often, love life, and live one day at a time. – Yes. That’s right. Love L. Hahaha. =p

M ake a daily schedule. List the things that you need to do for the day to avoid forgetting them. – Too stubborn to do this. By I’ll try it anyway. =]

N ever ever skip breakfast. Doing so is one of the biggest brain-damaging habits. – I have read before that research shows that girls who skip breakfast most of the time are the ones who are likely to experience premarital sex at an earlier time. Now, it’s telling us that it’s brain-damaging also. I would never ever skip breakfast. Even though that’s when I eat a few. I just don’t want breakfast to be heavy, although it is needed to keep working for the day. But I’d rather eat more on dinner, which is not good. Hehe. =p

O ffer your heart, soul, and mind to the Creator and King. – Guilty. =]

P articipate in discussions. You’ll learn more if you interact more. – Very true.

Q uit minding other people’s business. You have no ideawhat they are really going through.- Sometimes yes, often no. =]

R esearch. Don’t just settle with the things that you learn inside the classroom. – I do this when our lessons are of my interests.

S tay fit. Eat a balanced diet and exercise regularly. A healthy body is a must to a healthy mind. – Right. I try my best to.

T ake time alone to reflect and count your blessings. – As said in a song, “Take time to realize” is really healthy.

U se your talent, knowledge, and skills for the glory of God. – Not an Atenista, but I’m doing it. =]

V ent your feelings and opinions only after spending careful thought about them. – It depends. Sometimes I try to control my emotions, sometimes I spill it all out.

W ait, if you can, until graduate in college before having a sweetheart. – One things most of the teens can’t do now. Include me on that long, long list anyway. Haha. I just want to have an inspiration to the things I do and as a saying from a source, “True love waits, but I can’t wait na”. Very true right? Haha. =p

X erox or photocopy materials that you missed and study them. – Again, guilty. =]

Y earn to learn something new each day. – This is really my goal even before I’ve read this.

Z oom in on worthwhile opportunities that come your way. A missed opportunity is lost forever. – I remembered the quote from the African-American poet named Nikki Giovanni. “I really don’t think life is about the I-could-have-beens. Life is only about the I-tried-to-do. I don’t mind the failure but I can’t imagine myself I didn’t try”. Both are very real.

No lyrics in the Internet yet.

I’ll post it anytime I memorize the song.

i just wanna say, ooh lalalalala.

=]

I’m desperate to know how you are
I hope youre deep asleep
I’ve been awake for days,
Trying to study every inch of your body
In this picture, from a distant day.
When I could safely say
Nothing in this world could tear me down in any way

But like a dream you disappeared
Without a sound, without a trace

Chorus:

Sleep well, darling, wherever you are,
I hope that you’re happy tonight
And maybe you found someone who have you right.
Sleep well, darling
I’m desperate to say now I need you more than ever
But all I could say was goodnight.

This is for a girl back home,
She tore down all my walls.
Left me for all she’d known,
But I pushed it all away from me.
And no, no, even if I knew,
Even if I knew what to say to you.
It’s just too late to make you stay,
I’m sick of fighting this broken fate.

That someone else gets to tell you,
That your beautiful.

Repeat Chorus

(Instrumental)

*

It’s the last thing I want,
But it’s all that Ive got,
It’s the last thing I need,
But I still carry you in my heart.
In my heart.

Repeat *

Repeat Chorus

Sun by Daphne Loves Derby

Beautiful song=]

I’m now in the middle of a decision to make. I’m so confused in what to do. Should I stay? Or leave?

I’ll start on things why I should stay, the reasons affecting my decision to stay here in USI.

#1 My parents, specially my dad would surely be against my plans. I have said that to my mom, and she said that I should finish my course. Because we are not financially stable. Nobody can support me. I can’t depend on my brother. And they are in debts right now, as she said.

That matter has a point. We are really financially unstable, unlike before. My father is maintaining his medications for his heart ailment that cost thousands a month (probably 8k up) and obviously he’s not working. He’s lucky enough to receive some bucks from his employers as sort of incentive and called “consultation fee”. He uses that money to maintain his other expenses like advised food and food supplements to keep him stronger.

Where do we get the money? When in fact, to tell you the truth we are financially dependent on him in almost all of the expenses in our house, not until now when he is not working. Before he got sick, he can still afford to build his “dream comfort room” for us that we really don’t need. In the time he needed money the most, it was all gone. And my siblings and mother cannot support him. Why? My mother is only a regular government employee who earns lesser than she should because of some financial obligations like payment for our house, taxes in our property, and recently, her loan for my father’s hospital bills. My brother? He gave a lot before, but now, I guess he’s tired, mad because of my father’s attitude. I guess you’ll understand me if you’ll experience my father’s attitude.

Now, we are depending on my sister who’s very close-fisted. Yeah. You got it right. Financially. She’s insane. We don’t like her way in money management. And also a fact that she is paying all the bills and buys the groceries, we can’t ask for more from her.My older sister? Yeah! She has a big, big sign at her back, “welcome to the world of unemployment!”You got it right again. Not only that, she’s making the situation worse. She’s still asking money from my parents, even at her age (turning 24) and we know that she shouldn’t be. She should be financially independent at least. And she’s crazy too. She has an unpredictable mind which is irritating and does a lot of faulty things. It also adds up to the burden in my father’s part which increases his problems and stresses him and affects his health.

Me? The lucky one. I got a scholarship which pays 20k of my total school fees and giving me a monthly stipend of 2k which comes too late. It usually comes three months or more lately. But I think, God has a purpose. Like my 12k last semester, it came when my father was already in the hospital. So, I still had the chance to buy some things even at the start of our financial problems.

#2 I might not maintain my scholarship if I’ll be pushing myself to a high-standard school. And that’s a major FAILURE!

Why? I’ll get back here shameful although it is understandable to fail in that school. But my pride will eat me!

Uh. I’m thinking about the things I should consider in transferring to that school.

1.Allowance. My current allowance is not enough there. Who would give me more? Can I rely on my siblings? Answer: NO! Even on my closest one, my brother. He might not be financially stable at all times.

2.Where will I stay? At my aunt’s place? It’s too far. It would cost me much in commuting. But I can stay in my brother’s friend’s apartment. I am safe, near and I would pay less there.

3.Other expenses. Course related or not. Internet. I have it here. I have a computer here. I can’t bring that there! I don’t have a laptop. My brother, who has one, will soon be coming back to Baguio. I need internet to assure I’ll be equipped to be academically stable. I can’t rely on books at all times! I’ll have projects and researching to do for sure. I also have to have extra money for contributions and other unexpected expenses.

I know I can live there with just P200/day inclusive of food. But other expenses like groceries, I don’t know. I really don’t know.

I should be in my “dream school”!

Why?

1.That’s my ultimate dream! I am sure I would get 100% good education and competitive teachers and will be encouraged to study hard (unlike here)

2.Anyway, I’ll tell you that the teachers here, not all are competitive and I really hate that! I don’t like to have teachers who are clowns. Not literally. But those who are sure to be make fun of. In short, I don’t want stupid teachers! I am expecting more from this school, which disappoints me. I can only see 33% of likeness here. Some teachers are good, but many are really

STUPID! And NOT GOOD! Administration? CORRUPT! They won’t fool us easily. The assessment is wrong. We are paying for things we don’t really need. I hate them! Dean? Department head? Or whatever they call that SUCKS! I know they are new in the field, but I expect more from them. They were the chosen ones. Enough. It is also included in the reasons why I should leave this school.

Back to the real topic. Honestly, I want the best education for myself if I could. And I know I could. So why should I waste time and effort? I want the best for myself. So I could provide the best service to others and earn and save a lot for my future.

I should be in my dream school to keep myself away from distractions, problems, etc.

1. I’ll be away from my father( a major distraction)
2. 2. I’ll be away from my ex’s and all other people I don’t wanna see. I’m sorry, but it’s really the truth.\
3. 3. I’ll be away from people who belittle my ambitions. From people who do not believe in me. From people who do not ant to see people studying hard (you know who you are) I’m distracted, why? Who wants to study if people around you (not all) are not studying hard? And fooling around, saying that you are too serious I your studies (you’ll regret someday).
4. I’ll be away from people diverting my focus in study. I rally hate that. I’m really affected! And I don’t want that to happen! Man! I have a lot of dreams for myself!
5. I’ll get more opportunities in employment. Because it is really a big advantage to be a UP graduate.
6. I’ll be with someone whom, for now, I’m feeling that I’ll be happy with her in the years to come. I just like that person the way she is.

So, what do I do? I really want to study in UP. 100% sure! Need some help. After reading this, give me something to ponder about! =p

                                            EMO&GOTH..
mga pormang nauuso ngayon sa mga kabataan.lalung lalo na sa mga mahihirap at gusto makisabay sa uso.akala nila dahil sunod na sila sa uso,mga ASTIG na sila kung tawagin.pero tingnan niyo nga mga litrato niyo pagtanda niyo.kung hindi kayo matawa sa mga itsura niyo noong nagbibinata pa kayo o nagdadalaga.para kayong mga ipis.emo man o goth.lalo na ‘yung pinaghalo niyang dalawa.sobrang pangbabastos na ‘yon.tanngap ko pa ang mga goth.dahil kung tunay nga tala silang mga dugong goth.lalo na ‘yung mga rakistang goth.pero ‘yung mga emo,wanna be.hindi.lalo na ung hnidi nga alam ang kahulugan ng salitang emo.alam lamang eh magpahaba ng buhok hanggang s pumangit ito at matakpan ang namumulang mata.magsuot ng itim.lahat.itim n damit.itim na pangbaba.itim na sapatos.itim na kuko.itim na ngipin.itim na budhi.itim na singit.itim na kilikili.itim na nguso.kung ano ‘yung binebenta sa tiyangge o baratilyo na uso na EMO daw,ginagamit.simula sa mga walang kwentang bag na may print na wala ring kwenta.pinakauso ‘yung vampire casket bag.maganda sana ‘yung ideya.kung hindi lang binastos ng paglalagay ng emo prints sa paligid nito.’yung pagsusuot ng itim na damit na may imprentang simpleng pangalan ng banda.o pangalan ng banda at kung ano pa man na kalokohan ang kakabit.tapos ‘yung mga my emo na larawan.minsan nga,naisipan kong magtanong kung sino ba yung DISTURBED,SYSTEM OF A DOWN,at SLIPKNOT sa isang binatilyong nakasuot ng mga damit na katulad nito.kulang nalang ay bigyan ako ng sagot na yun daw ang pangalan ng nanay niya.pangalan niya.ng aso niya.ng eskwalahan niya.meron daw niyan.emo school.EMO ‘yung porma,pero hindi naman emo ‘yung iniidolize na banda.oo nga pala.malito na tayo kung ano nga ba talaga ang MCR.alternative,emo, o ano pa.pero sila ‘yung may pinakamabetang itim na damit sa buong bansa.yun bang my chemical romance the black parade na t shirt.isa pa yung ramones.tunog isla di ba?marami rin nagsusuot nun.pero pagtinanong mo kung ano ba yung ramones na yun,wala hindi nila alam.dahil logo ang kadalasan kasama nun,baka isagot nila grupo ng mga tanga.banda ‘yun.mabuti nga kumupas na ‘yung kaadikan sa pagsuot ng bob marley at che guevarra shirts.hindi niyo nga alam kung sino sila.kung taga saan sila.pwede naman sigurong magsuot nalang kayo ng sponge cola,bamboo,rocksteddy,calla lily,hale,sugarfree,imago,sandwich,rivermaya at kung anu-ano pang kilala niyong banda.at least.hindi kayo nagmukhang cheap.kung talagang pinaninindigan niyo ang pagiging emo,typecast o chicosci t shirts naman.yun.akma kayo dun.typecast talaga yung pinakasikat na emo band sa pilipinas.isa pa yung mga ugali ng mga kabataan ngayon.hindi ko na titirahin yung sa bahay,dahil baka patayin niyo na ako pakatapos.yung pagiging party animal niyo nalang.as in yung pagdayo niyo pa mula sa ilalim ng lupa para manuod ng libreng concert.halimbawa noong concert ng kamikazee,bamboo,rocksteddy, at sugarfree na may bayad nga kung tutuusin.yung sim card na madaling mabulok.dahil madaling madwactivate yung pang unli nito at di na nakakaregister sa unli.income generating.ang talino talaga ng SMART.ang kamikazee,bamboo,rocksteddy,sugarfree ay hindi EMO band.pero bakit naka emo porma kayo?suutin niyo nalang sana yan sa concert ng thursday,typecast,chicosci,angulo kahit hindi lahat sila emo.pwede naman kayong magsuot ng black lang.pero hindi emo ang porma.pero dahil nga yun lang ang kaya niyo,wala na ako magagawa diyan.ayoko ko naman manglait ng mga walang pera.tapos nagsasayawan pa yan.sabay hithit.yung iba nakainom.yung iba naninigarilyo.trese anyos palang.kawawa naman ang pilipinas pagdating ng araw na kayo na ang may mag anak.baka nga malapit na.dahil masyadong mapusok.hindi nag-iisip.o gumamit man lang ng anumang contraceptive.ewan ko ba.ayoko na silang laitin.sobra na ata yun.

yung pinakamagandang halimbawa talaga nila e nung concert ng IMAGO.ang imago ay pop-rock band na tunog alternative at may babaeng bokalista.subalit,datapwat naka emo porma sila.at meron ding goth.at mas marami pa ang lalaki sa babae.baka nga mga bading yun.at parang gusto pa nilang nasa unahan sila at makipagkantahan sa imago.at yung mga babae,sa likod lang.manood nalang kayo.at yung mga akala mo rakista.akala mo astig.nagsskateboard.akala mo mayaman.ayun.nakikipag agawan din dun.pero asal mayaman parin.kahit hindi niya dapat yun gawin dahil nasa libreng palabas siya na kung saan lahat ay pantay.bow.boring.

ang tawag sa mga natamaan,POSER!!!.salamat.

its actuali a song from chicosci..but it’s not about dat.i can rel8 ds post 2 a song "si aida, si lorna, o si fe"..i am soo confusd cnce tuesday..i got totali confusd by wed.& it winded me off ds saturday&sunday..whch has passd by w/ onli me thnkng about my problm..i dunno 2 whom i shud say ds..wer 2 seek 4 advice..i guess i’m gonna be crazy if i won’t solve ds..i shud hav 1 frnd 2 tok 2..i can’t kip ds 2 myslf..i shud tel ds 2 a frnd hu wud be fair..& wud juz giv me advice & not sermons..so now,i wryt ds 1st hir..i dunno if i’m going 2 end sumthng bcoz i don’t lyk it anymor & it brngs me problms.& chuz 2 eithr a past hu is reali a gud catch..i f i had dat, i won’t wori mor..or ds new comr,hu i lykd 2..makes d whole thng confusing..i tot it was onli a drim..untl it became a part of reality..i can’t bliv dat it happnd..so now,i dunno waat 2 do..maybe i shud stay silnt 4 a long tym..2 thnk..2 4get..2 chuz..or maybe,2 commit suicide..